your. SMILE(:

雨在下，人在哭。
天不是为我而下，而是和我一起哭。
i wonder why.

this is not the first time. neither will it be the last, sadly. its so hard to let go, so hard to just end it all. stupidity fills me. for what i've done, i feel like a fool. i should have known, should have realised, should have heeded those advice. but no, im sinking deeper and deeper into this miserable hole. believe? its tough. trust? not possible yet, not yet.
more abhorrence. im sick of this. tired and drained. im full of swear words i want to spit out. this is not me, and yet this is me. irony? not perhaps. i need a life, need to get away from this. all these unbearable bloody shit. its easy to see, easy to comment, easy to say, but not easy on the person whom you're saying to. you think its easy? not when you're not the person whos experiencing it. the emotional pain and all that emo crap. to say you understand and know is bullshit. i repeat, BULLSHIT. im being hateful. so? hate me then, get away from me. i've said time and time before, im sick and tired. now? its worse than that. im goign to get numb one of these days. numb until i cant even cry. for now, its just more crying. you think im acting emo? being emo? if you want to see emo, go see ppl whos cutting thier flesh up.

im this close to end this all.